Good Night, Denver

Good Night, Denver

56 º ~ night falling over Denver

Day Three at AWP, more, more, more.

Here’s a photo of my loot from Day Two: several button from various journals, a little blue plastic policeman that I won from the Barrelhouse table, and one of the Easter eggs the folks at Redivider hid around the conference. A week or so ago, the editors of Redivider sent out a call for poets to submit a line of one of their poems for this project. The editors printed out the individual lines and put them in the eggs with other fun stuff. I sent them a line, and then, while at the Sarabande table, picked up an egg and opened it. I picked up my own line. No lie. What are the odds?

Stacey Lynn Brown
Suzanne Frischkorn

First stop today was the bookfair. On the way over, I ran into Stacey Lynn Brown, and once in the fair, we stumbled on Suzanne Frischkorn and Susan Rich.
Since I didn’t get pictures of Stacey or Suzanne yesterday, I snapped them up while they signed copies of their books for each other. Even with 8,000+ writers swirling all around, these chance meetings happen over and over all day long. Lovely.

Oliver de la Paz

My original reason for stopping at the bookfair was to buy a copy of Requiem for an Orchard during Oliver de la Paz’ signing. He was gracious enough to let me take a photo as well, although he’d only met me the night before.

Chelsea Rathburn

Another lucky bookfair moment: running into Chelsea Rathburn, great poet and fellow University of Arkansas grad. I have really grown to enjoy the bookfair, not something I would have said the last few years. I didn’t have time to take pictures of all the wonderful journal editors I chatted with the past two days, but they were numerous and to a fault kind and generous, even when I fumbled.

Sherman Alexie

Next stop was the Beloit Poetry Journal reading, featuring: Karl Elder (new to me and a delight), Albert Goldbarth, Janet Holmes, Susan Tichy, and one of my writing heroes, Sherman Alexie. All of the readings were wonderful and the house was packed. I only wish the time had been longer so we could have heard more.

Then, I stopped in at the AWP Award Series reading and heard Beth Bachmann read from Temper, which I’ve already written about here. Sadly, no photo op presented itself.

Jason Lee Brown

Back at the bookfair, I just had time to catch Jason Lee Brown and get him to sign my copy of his new chapbook, Blue Collar Fathers. I was honored that Jason asked me to blurb his chapbook.

Adrian Matejka

Onward to the From the Fishouse reading, which was a real highlight to a day when everything was amazing. Here’s the lineup: Gabrielle Calvocoressi, Oliver de la Paz, Major Jackson, Adrian Matejka (pictured here), Erika Meitner, and Jeffrey Thomson. Given the mission of From the Fishouse and its focus on the sound of poetry, it’s no surprise that each reading was electric. The poets each read two of their poems featured in the From the Fishouse Anthology and two poems by other folks in the book. A very cool way to multiply the event.

Finally, I was going to join some of my new writer friends for an off-site reading, but my brain was full and my body was all done in. I crashed and slept for two hours. I know some will find it lame that I’m in my hotel room blogging while more readings are going on all around me, but this is who I am. I need some space and time alone each day. So far, I have no regrets about the trip save one…I left my Birks at home because I thought it’d be too cold for sandals, and now I wish I had them. 🙂

Now, more sleep before Day Four.

Posted by Sandy Longhorn
Good Morning, Denver

Good Morning, Denver

44 deg ~ mountain sun and blue sky, 17% less oxygen in the air here than at sea level according to one online source

I’m starting Day Three at AWP with a little me time in the hotel room, enjoying the view of the mountains and the quietude.

Day Two (yesterday) at AWP was awesome.  I made it to about 2/3 of the events I wanted to make.  Every year I say that I’m going to be more realistic about what I can do, and every year, I overplan.   I started out the day by attending a panel on grant writing and got some good advice.  After that it was off to the book fair.

Rachel Contreni Flynn

 I finally got to meet wonderful poet Rachel Contreni Flynn and she signed a coy of her new book, Tongue, for me!

There’s an auto show sharing the convention center with us, the smell of oil and tires mingling with ink and paper. Gearheads and writers mingling at will.

Suzi Garcia and Robert Bruno

 After a quick lunch with traveling buddy Antoinette Brim, I went to my next panel ~ Poetry & Memorability ~ and ran into former PTC students Suzi Garcia and Robert Bruno.  I’m so excited that they are here representing the University of Arkansas Little Rock. Rock on Rob and Suzi!

Mary Biddinger & Me

  Back to the book fair and a quick stop at the Barn Owl Review table to enjoy a little time with Mary Biddinger and buy a copy of the new issue.  You should buy one too!

Susan Rich & Dennis Maloney

Susan Rich was signing copies of her new book, The Alchemist’s Kitchen at the White Pine Press table.  I’d held off on buying the book a few months ago b/c I wanted to meet Susan, fellow blogger, and get a signed copy here.  As a bonus, I also met Dennis Maloney, editor and publisher at White Pine.

Jon Tribble & Allison Joseph

Finally, a stop at the SIU Press and Crab Orchard Review table to see the incomparable Jon Tribble and Allison Joseph, some of my most favorite poetry people in the world.

Suzi G., Robert B., & David Jauss

Walking outside, I ran into Rob and Suzi again, this time with UALR prof, David Jauss, writer of both prose and poetry.  I’d been wanting to meet him ever since I’d moved to Little Rock, and in true, AWP fashion, I met him hundreds of miles from home.

I grabbed a bite and sat in on the first two readers of the Poetry Society of America’s 100th Anniversary reading.  I had time to hear Cyrus Cassells and B.H. Fairchild.  Both read super poems, but the comment that stands out to me came from Fairchild.  He talked about being thankful for Alice James Books, who published The Art of the Lathe.  Fairchild had been submitting the manuscript for quite awhile without success and, in fact, was ready to give up poetry all together.  The submission to Alice James was his last and had they not published the book, he would not have written again.  Wow.

 Here is Ron, the Pedi-cab cyclist who transported me to Copper Nickel’s off-site 8 Debut Poets reading.  I am now a huge fan of Pedi-cabs and plan to travel this way as often as possible.  A great way to zip through the streets and enjoy the views.

The ceiling of the reading venue

 Just for kicks I took a shot of the ceiling at the reading venue at the Tivoli, an old brewery that is now the student center at the UC Denver Auraria campus.

Those reading at this particular CN event:  Dan Albergotti, Jericho Brown, Stacey Lynn Brown, Michael Dumanis, Farrah Field, J. Michael Martinez, and Allison Benis White.  I was bummed that Alison Stine had to cancel as Ohio Violence is on my to-buy list.

J. Michael Martinez

Here’s J. Michael Martinez signing my copy of his brand-new book (as in 5 days old), heredities, winner of the Walt Whitman Award, published by LSU Press.

Matthew Guennette

At the reception I ran into Matthew Guennette and re-met him…as we discovered we’d met at AWP in Austin and share a mutual friendship with the great Sean Chapman.  I’m looking forward to swapping books with Matthew today. 

Allison Benis White

Another book signed.  This time Allison Benis White signing my copy of Self-Portrait with Crayon, another book I’d waited to buy until now, hoping to meet the author.  The best thing about AWP!

Allison Benis White & Mary Biddinger

Last, but not least, a shot of Allison and Mary at the reception after the reading.  I just realized I have no pictures of amazing poet and new in-person friend Stacey Lynn Brown, but she Allison and I shared a Pedi-cab for the last six blocks of our walk home.  Stacey has pictures of that adventure.  Can’t wait to see them.

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Sleepless in Denver

Sleepless in Denver

32º ~ city lights stretching to the base of the mountains and then a void of night sky~those gods and goddesses in charge of sleep, they do forsake me

I bought a new camera in honor of AWP, a pocket camera that seemed less conspicuous than my hefty one that I never take out of my bag, so I’m trying to take a few snapshots along the way to share.

Day One of AWP was amazing and the expected whirlwind. It happens that my flight arrangements coincided with colleague and friend, Antoinette (I’m using first names only, not to be coy, but b/c I didn’t ask permission to use full names and I’m feeling like I should have), and we had a great talk during our layover in St. Louis. That’s her in the airport photo. She also took this great new profile pic of mine, so many, many thanks, Antoinette! I love Southwest Airlines and their line up by numbers system as we all got to talking to one another, plus the attendants from Little Rock to St. Louis just cracked me up!

On the plane ride from St. L. to Denver, who did I happen to meet, finally, in person, but Stacey and her family. That’s her doing what teaching writers do on the plane to AWP…schoolwork. I admired her dedication as I read some of the back issues of journals that had been burning a hole in my bookshelf at home for months.

Once at the hotel, I managed to check off all of the listings for today on my geeky Excel spreadsheet calendar. I am now more aware than ever that I won’t be saying that for days 2, 3, and 4.

First, there were drinks with Charlotte and Adam~I completely forgot to take their picture, perhaps the peach martini could be to blame? C & A introduced me to some other nice folks, and I look forward to seeing them all soon.

After a brief respite in the quiet of my room, I went out to dinner with Suzanne, as lively and beautiful in person as I’ve known her to be online. Suzanne was a sport about my fumbling the new camera, but I never really got a photo to do her justice. Instead, here’s a scene from our walk back to the hotel after attending the off-site diode/makeout creek reading. While the whole afternoon/evening was wonderful, the great Thai food Suzanne and I had for dinner was divine. Also, of equal divine-ness…I now have a copy of Suzanne’s new book girl on a bridge. Can’t wait to read it on the plane home! The diode/makeout creek reading was a blitz attack of poetry. Fourteen readers, many of whom I was in awe of for their deft use of humor in their work. I do wish I could do that!

Well, gentle Reader, I doubt I’ll post quite so much in the next few days, but I found myself awake in the wee hours after a seriously sound sleep of four hours. I hope to now be able to sleep once more and be fit & trim for Day Two. If you’re at AWP and see me nodding off, please steer me towards the hotel and beg me to sleep.

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Poem Up on RATTLE Blog

65 deg. ~ the air filled with yellow ~ pine pollen falling like snow

Just a short note today to let you all know that my poem “Self-Portrait: November” is up on the RATTLE blog, featuring an audio file of me reading the poem. The poem originally appeared in RATTLE 19, Summer 2003. Many thanks to Tim Green for featuring poems from past issues on the blog and giving me the opportunity to submit an audio file as well.

Enjoy!

Posted by Sandy Longhorn
AWP Prep Work

AWP Prep Work

70 ~ gray and humid, the red-bellied woodpecker has spent the last 3 days creating a nest in the tree outside my window

I seem to have fallen away from being able to read much poetry these last few weeks.  For those of you who might be missing my Monday “What I’m Reading” posts, rest assured that they shall return in May.  May…the month when recovery from April may be possible.

I’ve spent the weekend and the morning trying to take care of as much prep work as possible with AWP festivities on the horizon.  Saturday and Sunday were devoted to school work: grading, quiz creation, and commenting on student poems/stories.  This morning, though, that’s another story.  I have spent 2 and a half hours going over the AWP conference schedule and off-site events list.  I now have 3 and a half days worth of panels and readings and signings carefully plotted out on my embarrassingly geeky Excel calendar.

Here are some things I know:
1.  I both love AWP and experience great anxiety about it.  What is it, like 8,000 writers all crammed into one place?  That’s a lot of ego and who’s who?, especially when the elevators get piled full during the break between panels.  Lots of nametag gazing going on there.  

2.  When I feel anxious about an upcoming event, organizing soothes me. 

3.  While I’ve painstakingly ranked panels and events, I do realize that I will probably change my mind a dozen times between now and then. 

4.  Every year the AWP planners seem to double and triple book me, scheduling panels with writers I want to see at the same time.  Then, there’s always one day when I have a gaping hole in the middle of my calendar where nothing seems to fit.  Feast or Famine, AWP style.

5.  I am vowed to be more brave this year by introducing myself to people I’ve only worked with or met online.  If you notice me fumbling and socially awkward, please be kind.

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Adrafting We Will Go

62º ~ the whole sky a thick gray cotton mat of cloud cover

Friday, glorious Friday, the day when I push all other thoughts aside and set pen to paper. Not that there is anything dreamy about it (as the previous sentence may have suggested). As I said last week, I’ve been a bit rusty due to two weeks of not writing in the middle of March. This week again, it was a bit of a struggle.

I’ve been thinking about two diverging ways of writing. It seems from interviews I’ve read, that some writers write with an idea about the content of their work already formed. In other words, they spend a lot of “head time” ruminating about possible subjects and lines and/or characters/plots if fiction-driven. Then, when they sit down to write, they’ve already formed the core of the idea of the work and craft the words around it. I tend to follow the other path, along with many others. My “head time” is spent just trying to be a sponge and absorb words and images as I go about my life. Then, when I have my writing time, I go to that “compost heap” as one writer calls it (Natalie Goldberg, I think) for interesting sounds or images. The lines I dream up as I sit before the page actually determine the idea/central core of the work, and I am often surprised by what springs forth. I do not think either way is “right” or that one is better than the other. I’m just fascinated by those folks who can set out to write a poem about a certain subject and be successful…when I try to begin this way, mine are usually horrible.

But back to today’s work. As usual, I read and read (Sarah Vap’s American Spikenard today) and thought about two phrases Vap happens to use (once each): bien fait and elimination dance. The first the French for “well done,” the second a type of square dance where the caller “eliminates” dancers by calling out who has to leave the dance floor, for example “Men wearing white shoes with black laces.” FYI: Michael Ondaatje has a great poem titled “Elimination Dance” in The Cinnamon Peeler’s. I tell you all of this to tell you that nothing came of those thoughts.

Do you think me a tease, Dear Reader? Please forgive.

Then, I rose from my desk to trade my empty coffee cup for my water bottle, and as I walked in the quiet house, a line fluttered around me: “I was nothingstruck.” Yes, I saw the word “nothingstruck” as one word, a corruption of moonstruck. Much scribbling and then much typing and deleting later, the sparking line no longer in the first person and no longer the first line of the poem, I had a draft of sorts. It’s titled “In a Horseless Country.” I really like the form it took: couplet, tercet, single line, repeat three times, and I do believe this form fits the mood and content of the piece. I have high hopes it will survive the re-visioning to come.

Word on the street is that people like images with their words, so I grabbed this pic of a statue of a Morgan horse. When I was a kid, the book Justin Morgan Had a Horse, by Marguerite Henry, was one of my favorites, and the movie was okay too. The poem has nothing to do with Morgan horses, FYI.

Update on last week’s draft: “What Devours Us is Worth Devouring.” Lots of broiling energy surrounded the drafting of the poem. I believed in the draft last Friday. On Saturday, I hated it and was sure it was trash worthy. Today, I read it again and believe in it again. This is why I let things sit a bit. If I didn’t, I’d kill the newly drafted before they had a chance to really get their wobbly limbs under control.

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A Flutter, A Flurry

61º ~ ah, spring, what took you so long? (full sun, a moderate southern breeze)

This morning has been a flurry of activity at the Kangaroo desk. So here are some links and a few bits of news.

Congrats to Jehanne Dubrow for the arrival of her new book: Stateside. I still need to pick up From the Fever-World, but I plan to get both at AWP next week.

How a Poem Happens, one of my favorite poetry sites, features Jake Adam York this week, exploring the process of writing one of my favorite poems of his, “Shall be Taught to Speak.

Two bits of good news:

The new issue of Terrain.org is LIVE and includes two of my poems. In Monday’s blog I wrote about reading styles. If you click on my poems you’ll be able to hear me read. Feel free to let me know what you think.

After submitting for seven years, I *finally* placed two poems at Passages North. As I’ve said before, persistence has been my tool of choice in the world of publications. This proves the tool is sturdy. For the past several rounds of submissions, I’ve received the hand-written note to try again. This year, I first received an email stating that the editors liked my work but wanted me to send one more batch before making a final decision. I’ve never had that happen before, but dutifully, I mailed off five more poems. It turns out that the two selected were from this second group, and I am thankful to the readers and editors at the journal who took the time to reach out and work with me.

One last note: I’ve been feeling a bit of a geek for studying the AWP schedule and drafting a game plan. I even made my own calendar in excel so I could pencil in panels and readings/signings I do not want to miss. Today, while catching up on reading blogs, I must have read three or four written by people admitting to this very activity, advocating it actually. Writer geeks unite!

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Are You Taught to Read Like That?

47º ~ pure blue and the sun making its way into the world

A few weeks ago, I spoke to and read for Lyndsey Daniel’s Intro to Poetry class at the University of Arkansas Community College – Morrilton. When sending me my great thank you gift of a journal inscribed with personal notes from the class, Lyndsey also included some questions the students didn’t have time to ask, and as time permits, I’m going to tackle them here.

Joanne asks: Are you taught to read like that? (like poetry style)

This question made me smile and think about what can be a very contentious topic for some poets today. To answer Joanne, I’m going to have to “go round by Laura’s house” (as my father-in-law says when my mother-in-law tells an anecdote).

I experienced my coming-of-age as a poet in the late 80’s and early 90’s while I was an undergrad at the College of St. Benedict. We were lucky to have many great writers come and visit our small campus in central Minnesota, but the ones who stick out in my mind today are: Joy Harjo and Li-Young Lee. We were also lucky to have an extensive collection of videotapes of readings (yes, this was back in the day of VHS, dear Reader), and the one that I remember most from these is Quincy Troupe. I mention this because I had not heard a live poetry reading until this time. While my high school English teachers were phenomenal, we read mostly DWG’s (dead white guys) with some Emily Dickinson and Sylvia Plath (Dead White Women). All of our reading took place either silently or aloud, but with stumbling and stuttering as high school students often do when uncomfortable with their material. The teachers dramatized their readings to keep our interest.

So, as an undergrad, I heard poets read their poems for the first time, and all three of the ones I’ve named above, read in a performance style, not slam poetry or spoken word per se, but clearly reveling in the sounds of words and accenting line breaks. In part, this is what made me fall in love with poetry as a form, and I too adopted this style. (Interesting, I just noticed that all three people I mention above are non-white poets…not sure how much that comes into play with the discussion, but it intrigues me. The oral tradition seems to have been kept alive in all three cultures, native American, Asian-American, and African-American, in ways it hasn’t for Euro-centric Americans.)

As many of you know, I took six years off between my undergrad days and graduate school. In that time I both lost and found poetry many times; however, I didn’t attend many readings, and I continued to read my own work aloud (to myself) in more than just straight reading off the page. I’m not sure there is a word for this, but I separate the way prose is read from poetry. I do not mean it has to be highly dramatic, but I do think there should be a closer attention to the sounds of words and lines…that is after all one of the key demarcations between the forms, no?

In any case, I arrived at the U of Arkansas excited about my first workshop. At the end of the workshop, the instructor castigated both myself and another female poet for reading in this “poetic style.” Apparently, the fashion of poetry reading by the late 90’s and early 00’s had become a flat style, simply reading the lines off the page in prose-like fashion. I must admit, dear Reader, that I left that workshop and cried. This instructor had crushed one of the things I loved about poetry. It took me a long time to have the confidence to read my work out loud again, even though I had to read every line I wrote in workshop on a bi-weekly basis.

After struggling through grad school and trying to find my voice both on the page and during readings, I think I’m finally closer to the answers. I still read in a “poetry style,” as Joanne mentions, and I’m proud of it. However, I do try to moderate my leanings toward the completely musical. I hope I’ve struck a happy medium.

You all can be the judge soon. Watch for my announcement for when the new issue of Terrain.org goes live (this Wednesday or Thursday). I’ve got two poems there with my most recent recordings of my reading style. Let me know what you think!

Thanks so much for the question, Joanne. Hope the class will watch this space for more answers soon. You all were a truly wonderful audience.

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Just for Kicks

52º ~ too many fast-moving clouds

Clearly, I’ve been playing around with the look of the blog even though there’s schoolwork on my desk that needs attention. Not sure what will stick, but having fun just messing with it.

As I mentioned before, I’m in awe of those poets who take up the NaPoWriMo challenge to write a poem a day for the month of April, and with AWP in April this year, I’m even more in awe. For those interested, here’s a link to 30 prompts from Kelli Russell Agodon. Good luck!

Also, don’t forget to sign up for free books here (for heaven’s sake, don’t be shy; we’re talking about FREE books!) and for a list of all participating poets, check out the sidebar on Kelli’s blog.

If you’ll be at AWP and want to try and meet for a meal or a drink, reach out by email (sandy dot 40 dot longhorn at gmail dot com) or find me on Facebook.

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Painful Return to Drafting

50º ~ cooler today, but plenty of sun, one stubborn tree of unknown type refuses to leaf in the neighboring yard, otherwise, the view is filling up with new growth…pale green

Today being Friday, I decided to try for a draft of a new poem. Two weeks ago, I was unsuccessful; last week, no draft due to window installation. I knew I’d be rusty and weak-muscled after the absence. I started out by reading a few chapbooks (more on that to come in a future post), but alas, no lines swam to the surface. After 45 minutes of reading without inspiration (not the fault of the chapbooks), I decided to fall back on my wordbank & random number generator brainstorming. I gathered words from both chapbooks and then made random pairs of words. The very first pair suggested the content of the poem, although I resisted it at first because it touches a raw emotion still oozing. In the end, I didn’t use any of the word pairs I generated for the final version of this first draft. Several made it onto the page but were revised out. However, I did draw on some of the strongest words from the list. I grabbed this picture of lilac blossoms from Google Images because the poem ends on an edible lilac blossom garnish (had to look it up to be sure it wouldn’t kill the speaker). The draft is titled “What Devours Us is Worth Devouring,” and I have to say this was the toughest draft to title in a long, long time. I must have tried on a dozen ill-fitting phrases before settling on this. Not sure it will last.

Time and time again, I advocate the practice of writing to my students, the willingness to be at the desk no matter what. Of course, I draw the comparison to famous athletes who put in hours of practice to become great. Today, I’ve proved myself true. Two weeks away from active drafting resulted in a more painful return to the playing field.

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